Thursday, January 7, 2010
The Horn Stops Here (Scapegoat)
January 7, 2009,

“The buck stops here” is a phrase
that was popularized by U.S. President Harry S. Truman, who kept a sign with that phrase on his desk in the Oval Office.

The phrase refers to the fact that the President has to make the decisions and accept the ultimate responsibility for those decisions.

Buck passing or passing the buck is the action of transferring responsibility or blame onto another person. It is also used as a strategy in power politics when the actions of one country/nation are blamed on another, providing an opportunity for war.

The latter expression is said to ha
ve originated with the game of poker, in which a marker or counter, frequently in frontier days a knife with a buckhorn handle, was used to indicate the person whose turn it was to deal. If the player did not wish to deal he could pass the responsibility by passing the “buck”, as the counter came to be called, to the next player.

January 7, 2009, Alabama Crimson Tide defeats the Texas Longhorns 37 – 21 in the Rose Bowl for the BCS National Championship.

Year Review is just about done too.
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World: Hidden Symmetry Observed for the First Time in Solid State Matter
2010 01 09

From: sciencedaily.com

Researchers from the Helmholtz-Zentrum Berlin für Materialien und Energie (HZB), in cooperation with colleagues from Oxford and Bristol Universities, as well as the Rutherford Appleton Laboratory, UK, have for the first time observed a nanoscale symmetry hidden in solid state matter. They have measured the signatures of a symmetry showing the same attributes as the golden ratio famous from art and architecture.

The research team is publishing these findings in the Jan. 8, 2010 issue of the journal Science.

The magnetic field is used to tune the chains of spins to a quantum critical state. The resonant modes (“notes”) are detected by scattering neutrons. These scatter with the characteristic frequencies of the spin chains. (Credit: Image courtesy of Helmholtz Association of German Research Centres)

On the atomic scale particles do not behave as we know it in the macro-atomic world. New properties emerge which are the result of an effect known as the Heisenberg’s Uncertainty Principle. In order to study these nanoscale quantum effects the researchers have focused on the magnetic material cobalt niobate. It consists of linked magnetic atoms, which form chains just like a very thin bar magnet, but only one atom wide and are a useful model for describing ferromagnetism on the nanoscale in solid state matter.

When applying a magnetic field at right angles to an aligned spin the magnetic chain will transform into a new state called quantum critical, which can be thought of as a quantum version of a fractal pattern. Prof. Alan Tennant, the leader of the Berlin group, explains “The system reaches a quantum uncertain — or a Schrödinger cat state. This is what we did in our experiments with cobalt niobate. We have tuned the system exactly in order to turn it quantum critical.”

By tuning the system and artificially introducing more quantum uncertainty the researchers observed that the chain of atoms acts like a nanoscale guitar string. Dr. Radu Coldea from Oxford University, who is the principal author of the paper and drove the international project from its inception a decade ago until the present, explains: “Here the tension comes from the interaction between spins causing them to magnetically resonate. For these interactions we found a series (scale) of resonant notes: The first two notes show a perfect relationship with each other. Their frequencies (pitch) are in the ratio of 1.618…, which is the golden ratio famous from art and architecture.” Radu Coldea is convinced that this is no coincidence. “It reflects a beautiful property of the quantum system — a hidden symmetry. Actually quite a special one called E8 by mathematicians, and this is its first observation in a material,” he explains.

The observed resonant states in cobalt niobate are a dramatic laboratory illustration of the way in which mathematical theories developed for particle physics may find application in nanoscale science and ultimately in future technology. Prof. Tennant remarks on the perfect harmony found in quantum uncertainty instead of disorder. “Such discoveries are leading physicists to speculate that the quantum, atomic scale world may have its own underlying order. Similar surprises may await researchers in other materials in the quantum critical state.”

The researchers achieved these results by using a special probe — neutron scattering. It allows physicists to see the actual atomic scale vibrations of a system. Dr. Elisa Wheeler, who has worked at both Oxford University and Berlin on the project, explains “using neutron scattering gives us unrivalled insight into how different the quantum world can be from the every day.”

However, “the conflicting difficulties of a highly complex neutron experiment integrated with low temperature equipment and precision high field apparatus make this a very challenging undertaking indeed.” In order to achieve success “in such challenging experiments under extreme conditions” the HZB in Berlin has brought together world leaders in this field. By combining the special expertise in Berlin whilst taking advantage of the pulsed neutrons at ISIS, near Oxford, permitted a perfect combination of measurements to be made.

Source: sciencedaily.com

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Traditional spellings could be killed off by the internet within a few decades, a language expert has claimed.
The advent of blogs and chatrooms meant that for the first time in centuries printed words were widely distributed without having been edited or proofread, said David Crystal, of the ..University of Wales.. in ..Bangor…
As a result, writers could spell words differently and their versions could enter common usage and become accepted by children.
Within a few decades, the spellings favoured by many internet users could replace the current, more complex versions, Professor Crystal said. Current spellings were standardised in the 18th century with the advent of dictionaries.
..Internet slang.. – such as ”2moro” instead of ”tomorrow” or ”thx” for ”thanks” – could enter mainstream publications, Professor Crystal said, adding that many spellings bore no relation to meaning or pronunciation. ”The vast majority of spelling rules in English are irrelevant,” he said. ”They don’t stop you understanding the word in question.
”If I spell the word rhubarb without an ‘h’ you have no trouble understanding it. Why do we spell it with an ‘h’? Because some guy in the 16th century said it was good to put an ‘h’ in to remind us of the history of the word.”
Professor Crystal said that before the internet, nobody could write something in print without an editor or a proofreader checking it. But now phonetically spelt words were likely to enter the vocabulary.
”There’s been a huge movement over hundreds of years to simplify English spelling because it is complex for historical reasons,” he said.
”What you consider to be atrocious now may be standard in 50 years.
”There are people around who would treat what I said to be the voice of the devil, but one has to remember that spelling was only standardised in the 18th century. In Shakespeare’s time you could spell more or less as you liked.”
Professor Crystal told the conference of the International ..English Language.. Testing System the internet would not lead to a complete breakdown in spelling rules.
”All that will happen is that one set of conventions will replace another set of conventions,” he said.
Professor Crystal said schools should not abandon the teaching of traditional spelling. ”Kids have got to realise that in ..this day and age.., standard English spelling is an absolute criterion of an educated background,” he said.

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alpha and omega pack? youre freaking kidding me. okay, lets get right to it, jordans dad gets killed (rumored and basically tied to his gambling addiction) jordan retires, nike freaks out, the ix is in production, they think, hmm, unc is still a great ncaa bball school, lets do a carolina tribute to the ix (which still has never been retroed and must be) so, we have the carolina theory and colorway… nike then makes a “replica” authentic jordan unc jersey (embroidered was wrong, screen print as in 2000 retro jersey) so they retro jordan 1-3… base the ix around mj in his hof baseball career (obvious sarcasm) all to keep the ship afloat (other markets were still strong, but basketball is nikes foundation)

so michael returns… pippen and reggie miller wore the x until mr. 45 comes back. carolina in almost every jordan and team jordan after ix. lets fast forward to 2000, nike, under the cover name jordan brand releases a full replica outfit of jordans 1982 unc ncaa championship team, they did the uniform justice, i was pleased, but then thought “what the hell can i wear these with, jordan wore dr. j converse all stars” 2002-2003 – nike buys out converse, well, they didnt destroy the brand (wade) so adidas mustve taken notes when taking reebok (iverson and nfl uni’s) and nike has retroed all kinds of weapons, even magics pair, hell, even the low top. (1987 – bird vs. magic “choose your weapon” search google) so converse obviouslly inst going anywhere, so lets get to the alpha and omega.

so thinking about an alpha and omega pack, why the hell doesnt nike make alpha the converse, and the correct (short shorts people) uniform? and the omega would be some variation of the xviii (18) since he played his last pro ball in them. nike had the rights to his uniform of select nba teams in 2003 (bulls, lakers, celtics, raptors, but super most important the wizards) weird time in the nba, many different companies making on court authentics or pro-cuts) so nike shouldve done this years ago, when they still had production rights (see their last stand with the jordan tribute jersey series of swingmans and authentics?) the alpha and omega should be a full package of the converse mj wore, his unc uni, and the xviii, and his wizards or even bullets retro throwback (jordans last year was nikes busiest jersey production and sales year, they over over raped the masses of swingmans, authentics, and pro-cuts, then the bullets hwc “hardwood nights classics” jersey- there was a HUGE buzz in 2003)

so when everyone buys in to any more crap packs or any new jb products, gossip, or just bs that gentry humphrey dumps out, at least have the history to decide if you want to be just another dazed consumer. nike needed to do this in 2003-04. its that simple. also then realize why it took 3 years to sell the embroidered rookie jordan jersey. nba store may still have some for 49.99

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social culture crisis, i am a man whom at times feels individual, or entitled to look down upon people, being critical in detail about something i do not agree with, or personally accept, becoming so obsessed in my ego, my self image is so self-absorbed and selfish, when the truth is, i am no different from anyone else, i am not entitled anything more or less than anybody else. when i am in product driven trance, im focused on a persona to present to everyone, and its so complicated and compartmentalized, that i may add or take away from this certain persona, or perhaps i may change my projected self-image, all based on specific peoples perception of me, or what i do, how i act, or anything in my behavior really. when im in a egotistical mind, i am so unrealistic and excessive, so i do what many do when the crisis comes into my mind, creating paranoia, destructive amounts of insecurity, i drink the propaganda kool aid, and play the ego based chase for taste or “style” subcultures are all structured around these principles, i feel at this point that i am so unsure of whom or what i even am because i have adapted my persona in so many ways, justified horribly expensive products, brand names, and the ultimate worst in ego based self redemption, the limited edition theory, you believe the whole time while chasing this specific product, that there is only 500 or 1000 made of it, you pay extreme amounts and have the worst child-like mindstate and rationale justifying why you made the chase for the item or product itself. when many people close to you become critical of something you buy, you become aggressive in response, creating a defense mechanism that is foolish, has no true base or principal, yet you feel you must take defense of a product, almost making it a living entity itself.

this next area takes focus upon mind control techniques and suggestive thinking used so commonly in advertising or marketing all kinds of products, a unrealistic designed dualism (NIKE VS. REEBOK) (COKE VS. PEPSI) and not making our own true allegiance with a specific product, or manufacturer. the most true fact in creating a regular customer or consumer, a mindstate, lifestyle, or sense of individualism from various products. techniques of persuasion.

group think (subservience)

dialectical divisions

fashionable allegiances (subculture standards – too short said get in where you fit in)

implanted associations

escapism

fantasy into reality

inflated persona’s (exactly as i broke myself down)

excessive eroticization

subliminal s (belief in no science of the soul)

unconscious brand (corporate name) loyalty

product driven anti-social behavior

synasthesia

metacontrast

hemisync

appeal to authority without studying the sources
( “EXPERTS AGREE” ” 1 TOP SELLING” ETC.)

the most important, or influential techniques used in my opinion, which i can identify so easily with from my own experiences and strange sense of entitlement before, during, or after the chase of a product, its almost a lust you develop, you lose yourself in buying into a concept or product. many possible behaviors follow if you obsess with abundance or excessiveness

allegiance / loyalty (AGAIN) – the best brand image is the self image which enables the customer to project himself into the product so what the customer actually buys is a projection of his own traits.

the reward mechanism (almost used in every form of advertising or marketing)

treats for hard work, and self-admiration, etc. a basic drive of all “normal” mammals and humans, which is the true base of consensus trance and materialism itself.

this is where i can easily see where the marketeers have stolen from freud, his theories, and ideals in pushing products to give us self-esteem. i have wasted so much money on tennis shoes, vinyl toys, hats, sweatshirts, tech gadgets, etc. that when the “retro” market was introduced, it gave the consumer a true “renaissances of age” where the consumer can remember the product being sold, marketing campaigns, or to me the most important, and extremely personal, reminiscing on the past when the specific item wasnt affordable due to age, or financial situations. this also may help explain the throwback jersey trend that sadly took over the brainwashed “street subculture” ( i hope that isnt even a real term) and people would spend up to 400 bucks on an older 1970s-80s-90s styled jerseys with a certain player, which many would buy and not even know history in why the product was being reproduced with a certain athletes name and number, and in no way am i saying that you shouldnt have anything to wear that you actually like based on the look or design, but that is alot of money spent on an item, and for me as a die hard sports fan from youth to today, it was sad to see vintage sport apparel with legendary respected athletes represented simply as a fad, trend, or mid life crisis for youth. this can also apply to limited edition propaganda also, because many of the items that i find myself brainwashed into are bootlegged, faked, or “factory variant” and have such impact in each market to the point that fakes are so higly produced, its driven some prices up and down, authenticity is almost always an issue, and eventually, you will see such detail flaws that its just ridiculous to even manufacture a fake of that item, things such as colors on sneakers retroed that were never released by the corporation, blatant quality control, as well as highly raised demand, which can destroy a specific products value by over saturating a market with fake product, and risky purchases, and this is the most difficult for the “collector” mindstate or perspective, that each major corporation may even make these fakes (WHICH INDEED IS 100% TRUE) or that many heads of factories take extra material from the factory home, only to replicate the product itself, which makes so many hypnotic consumers think they have “special limited edition colorways” or “never released product” which a true collector is so quite obsessive that they can easily distinguish the product as a knock off, but to many youth and nostalgia consumers, they actually believe they are getting genuine product, that is thought to be rare, or limited. once the markets are hit with this dilemma, crisis, or plain flat out obsessive compulsion, it makes it hard for a “collector” to to obtain genuine slave sweat shop product itself, which i would honestly say that up to 80% of each market has these knock offs made by the same corporation they appear to replicate. a true “elitist” mentality, which can ruin the whole fun of the newcomer in that subculture, and makes that “scene” or subculture saturated with brainy smurf types always pointing out other peoples flaws and taste ( OF WHICH I REFER MYSELF AT THE TOP) all while never looking at their own “style” purchasing habits ( MANY COLLECTORS CANNOT JUSTIFY $450 ON A PAIR OF PRE-OWNED SNEAKERS OR A $200 SWEATSHIRT ) and basically become trapped into trying to outdo one another over mainly internet websites or large metropolitan areas or cities.

( IMAGINE CONSUMERS AND SUBCULTURES THAT DRESS UP IN UP TO $2000 OUTFITS JUST TO SIT IN FRONT OF A COMPUTER BEING BRASH AND FLASHY, YET NOT LEAVING HOME IN THAT OUTFIT, OR SIMPLY DRESSING UP IN THAT OUTFIT TO TAKE PICTURES TO DISPLAY WHAT THEY WORE ON CERTAIN DAY SEARCHING FOR ACCEPTANCE AND RESPECT. – THINK OF ME )

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AMAZING QUOTES FROM ERICH FROMM

in this cybernetic age, the individual becomes increasingly subject to manipulation. the individuals work, consumption, and leisure are manipulated by advertising, by using ideologies such as “positive reinforcements” the individuals lose their active responsible role in the social process, they become completely “adjusted” and learns that any behavior, act, thought, or feeling which does not fit or comply into the general scheme puts him at a severe disadvantage, which in fact the individual is exactly what they are supposed to be.

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what has happened in modern industrial society is that traditions, common values, and genuine social personal ties with others have largely disappeared. the modern mass man is isolated and lonely, even though he is part of a crowd, he has no convictions which he should share with others, only slogans and ideologies he gets from the communications media.

- Erich Fromm (Anatomy of Human Destructiveness)

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ALLEGIANCE BY ANDY CHRIST

Feeling connected to a corporate entity without knowing practices and measures the corporation may take to make and/or deliver product, also origins of corporate identity, and full board members as well as who owns stake in the company, and how the company practices within moral guidelines.

( NIKE ARMS SMALL COUNTRIES TO INFEST EACH LAND TO BUILD SLAVE WAGE SWEAT SHOPS TO MAINTAIN CHEAP LABOR AND HIGH PROFIT GAINS )

understand also many companies use sacred arts and the zodiac to advertise products and time of year to release them, its honestly not based off of focus groups and consumer (STUDY THE ORIGIN OF THE WORD CONSUMER) study companies that are INDEPENDENT?

THINK ABOUT BEING BRANDED BY A COMPANY? THAT BILLBOARD JOKE IS NOT FUNNY.

i never believe any rags to riches stories anymore, ive studied great lengths of corporate bloodline lineage for the past few years because of who i am, what i identify and package my persona with things such as sneakers, shirts, etc. all brands are important in knowing what youre dealing with, not just whom. know what they use as conduct, humane policies and guidelines that are appropriate, and i am a contradiction, i am not telling you i am any different or better, i am simply stating my ever-ever-changing opinion and lifestyle, thoughts, and learned research from documented sources. ill give a small example now…

the L-R-G ( Lifted Research Group ) brand was a “urban” themed brand, aimed at inner city suburb youth needing an identity to cling to, a perfect time to rebirth a echo unltd. brand that makes all rawkus talib kweli pre-download, keep it real groupie boy backpacker who doesnt realize nothing is independent or even indie, if you own a company, you care about the bottom line, how to draw up a plan to focus the image you need to market, and execute on it.then after you have youth subcultures blending together, watch the money pile up, and walking dead youth and true school hip hop self-proclaimed prophet and makes sure you know every artist, publishing rights and release dates to all specific hip hop song ever recorded
as well, and this type is usually 20-29 years old. those are the target audience, until you cross-over for the inevitable SELL OUT label and stereotyped subculture negative puff daddy stamp of approval on keepin it really glam and hatred focused, puffy really gave us the O.G. icon to identify with, i think every youth-dazed subculture rooted scene needs a judas, and hip hop snobs are the best at dissecting a “fuck it im rich” WWF type that really can ruin an industry, and others that have made a significant negative impact, like jumain dupri, will smith, its parallel with the times that disgraces the true school standard upheld by this cult sect of hip hop preachers that dont even rap. thats me anyways, so i can break the stereotype and show the insecure nature one lusts and clings to so they have some group of people interested in the same implanted ideals and focus, as well to have a nemesis as if the elements of hip hop are each a comic book bizzarro world and they must save you with their mystic super urban themed ( WHAT MAKES A THEME URBAN ANYWAYS? ) tradition and prophecy. this is product enslavement, this is brainwashed consumption image seeks a whole outlook on life, and standards of subculture icon with comparable psalms to make compatible consensus trance life possible.

brand label loyalty is a religion in this culture, at this point, and it makes significant changes dramatically, look at rock, the 60s, 70s -80s punk scene in the uk, 90s grunge, then it became alternative, its not a music type, its so important to people, its as if they have nothing else to believe in. empty hopes of souls that arent individual at all, and maybe may think we are all one entity, and we all must have genuine harmony to survive, and we have a few years left, know whom you support, and why you choose to put money into, and decide what cultural religion you subscribe to and who you make yourself.

yes we are all fucked that way…..

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and here we have our quandary, and oh do we seek within..

synchronicity and synchromysticism sports blog full of misconstrued facts, rumors, headlines, trades, tidbits, bullshit, and surrealism all wrapped up through giddy star-gazed, bright eyed naivety and biased player favortism and even ridiculing specific popular players and teams based on all personal dislikes of certain players being held up such as deity worship for all the wrong reasons, i plan on using many different theories such as numerology of specific players numbers, stats, and trends in sports worship. the wrong reasons for certain atheletes being adored and worshiped will also be a main topic and focus on a regular basis, players such as kobe and lebron will be ridiculed on a regular basis, and also whenever i see fit to insert critiques, criticism, bias, bashing, and even sports marriages are important now, years inserted for being together, players performance with certain romances and whatever i see proper to make possible negative remarks or to enlighten my audience to certain trends, like michael jordan donating his un-retirment salary to 9-11 victimc families all when he wears #23 and also lebron james disapproving of the #23 being worn, and his remarks to change it to his olympic #number 6 this upcoming offseason. 23 representing 666, mark of the beast, etc. and his turning to #6 will be a multiple of 2×3, his nike marketing campaigns, focused on him being “king james” the last true revision of the bible under the original king james and what exactly is nike trying to say with their ads, endorsements, and image, also how he is marketed against kobe bryant, and the same of kobe braynt changing his number to 24 from 8 after the 2006 season, kobe may even be a main focus, just because of his essence and impact on headlines, positive or negative, whichever syncs will follow with wyncs or hints along the way of the blog itself. another player i wish to focus much attention to would be alex rodriguez, because of his dating a much older kabalistic madonna, and wearing the templar friendly #13, instead of his regular #3 (christian holy trinity also the the triple goddess, as well as many other examples of #3 being used for various worship, freemasons worshipping jahbulon.) which he wore during his years until his signing to the yankees, of which #3 was retired babe ruth i believe.psychology will be instrumental and will be implemented in every post, as sports psychology remains under reported and unnoticed, players all have and use some form of superstition, alas jason terry, another #13, and his arizona teammate gilbert arenas, whom wears #0 and definetlly seems portrayed as bi-polar by the media, and he chose zero, as he is known as agent zero, i cannot remember which level a coach siad he would play zero minutes, as he has claimed numerous times from reporters and his own label he created when he posted his infamous blog, which he has since stopped, my guess is to focus on playing at the level he once played at, and another sync is that he was injured yet again in one of his knees, that limited him very much in the past 2 seasons, and if he makes a comeback to his all-star form again, his #0 will be instrumental in him coming full circle, as the #0 demonstrates. he has also given himself the nickname “hibachi” a japaneese grill, a name he would shout when he releases the ball from his shot, and when he was an all-star, getting hot and heating up during games. other players i wish to focus on will be the attention seeking chad ochocinco and his obsessions with being 85 or wishing the spotlight upon himself, as well as his cousin keyshawn johnson, another attention whore who is a former nfl wide receiver (sync with attention gathering as well as KEY itself) whom played at USC (trojan nicknamed team from college) and was also a number phenomenon as #17, which i believe it is reference the to the egyptigan dynasty, which i seem to think of the word dynasty and associate sports with that word. brett favre also resonates, for many reasons, not just the bi-polar tendencies he seems to display with his attention whore tactics, which he seems to neither care about positive or negative headlines, but ill choose to save favre, i want to focus on popular athletes that dont necessarily stay popular, as injuries and other factors that come up in the media. i want the blog to be obsessive in the esoteric, occult, and conspiracy themes, because there is a genuine connection there, if noticed it the pop-culture zeitgeist, or even subculture in their own respective divisions. sports influenced religious players, some that go way to far, such as the insane stat “savior” florida university enigma tim tebow and his christianity take shared with other players in the same school of thought like the ultra talented and also florida based superstar dwight howard, whom was evangelistic almost before he even played an nba game, as he swore his pledge to convert many nba players to christianity instead of nightclub strip club alcoholic skirt chasing as we have seen and associated with the nba, because of “laker” legends “MAGIC” (snycs again with howard as the orlando team uses the magic moniker) and james worthy, and most important kobe bryant yet again (rape allegations) and the true legend the late wilt chamberlain. noting that the lakers came from minnesota in i believe 1960, and minnesota being holy because of the lake minnetonka, which religions has been formed to worship the lake itself. i also will use the archetypes of moses and jesus having a divine staff, or perhaps the baseball bat, of which baseball is a true masonic artform, as many examples can be used to explain that theory. baseball is regarded as “americas favorite pastime” and also was founded in america, a true freemasonic founded country. all other sports are not innocent as well, as they are borrowing shapes, stargates, measurements, and most important, sacred geometry itself, as i see that being one possible answer or explanation to the divine universe and the cosmos themselves. in sports, i see stargates, holiest of holy (figure skating as the stars and the sky, also hockey, soccer, tennis, football, basketball, and yet again baseball!) and so many religious and esoteric themes everywhere in sports. marketing will be heavily delved into as many of the sponsor companies are very and highly obvious occult, and specific in symbolic terms such as nike, as they use a greek goddess, the following these companies have gained with the advertisement age, the blind following and brand allegiance being pledged by sports fans, as well as subculture style junkies seeking an identity through these companies and/or organizations. lets start with the way too obvious company nike saturn mysticism logo, reebok and the vector, adidas, another 3, or trinity aspect being represented again. the celtics winning their #17th nba championship on the 17th of june 2008, once again referencing and reflecting egypt again. look to the maya people and culture, whom i believe are much more advanced in many ways then we are perhaps nowadays, and the basketball/rugby/soccer/hockey and the whole doomsday, end of the world sensation again, and how the hyksos shepherds, or priests are again being played out yet again if you notice the worship of sports players and their possibly dna spliced bloodline cloning we all question in sports players in this time frame, like deities or plain and simple not human bodies that achieve such impossible feats, and how we follow them like holy biblical figures, once again putting in question their personal beliefs and to follow the almost impossible feats they achieve in careers. i reference team names yet again with the cleavland cavilers, los angeles lakers, new york yankees, power animal resonating monikers such as carolina panthers, jacksonville jaguars, minnesota timberwolves, detroit lions, chicago bears, all the symbolism being used in logos, ad campaigns, and so many other in-your-face style of modern day advertisements, and the occult, esoteric, and religious themes being recycled over and over in strange different contexts.

help me find a name with synchronicity and/or synchromysticism involved, whoever does, get vip status on the site and maybe even more..

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okay, this is a truthful story, in the truest form of trues, it took 20-some years to find god and salvation, but, it can be obtained easily by following these steps, or just finding your own path and religion, you decide. leaders, go lead somewhere, followers, come on, i got some brainwashing to do.

i woke up a 23 year old boy, realizing i had a psycho wife, and newly born child, fuck, she went in a mental ward a month after we had him, and i had to fight off her crazy ass dad (also a) AA 20 yr. dry drunk blue collar guitar playing christian, and a whole “white man christian court system” against me, my kid has disibillities, i dealt with that fine, he called county workers, they came over, i did great, while all of this bullshit is going on, the wife gives up custody, and fucks shit up badly in court, well here i am, 24 by then, and just scared to be alive, not knowing how much longer i had to hold on to my beloved son augustus. everyone needs to understand this, i was a brainwashed working class sinner, one that would go to chuch ( a spanish speaking one at that) leaning on the benches just crying, and begging in my head to god to forgive me for everything from swearing, to basiclly breathing. i was working 70 hour weeks, seeing a wife at a state commited hospital, and staying as sober as sober could get, i thought i was doing everything wrong, when in a modern mans eyes, i was doing everything correct and polite even. keep in mind, this is pre to early to earliest media2017 days…

so…

fast-forward to me losing a child, hiding out in a small town in minnesota to have my mother lick my wounds, i was starting to see my reality and religion slipping away at a vast pace. i started seeing life for what it really was… a man eat man, elite hierarchy of society hidden away in symbolic tradtions and ceremonies, brainwashed sheeple being replaced by knownots, and the five percent nation of islam kicking in, what a time, i went into mental wards, acted out, did anything i could to destroy the thought i could do anything by myself, and then, there it really was, i could do anything i wanted…

they gave me a huge ass social security check in 2004, year i was declared retarded, cool. im starting to realize, im actually god, and i should be worshipping my own self, mom called me christ at the teen years, so ill stick with that. sitting in a small town on medications for a few racist redneck months, making an occasional video or three to pass time, when i finally get the money in my hand, decision time.. now, lets go meet this girl that seems capible of putting up with this outward side of me thats in effect, so i fly out to norcal, LENOR, woah, i gotta take this one back to mom, did it, found so much fucking religion out west, i realized i was the priest, fucked up my back seriouslly bad bad bad (3 surgeries motherfuckers) found a home back amoungst media2017 brotherhood. well…

everything was good until she started slipping up, physical pain makes sense, as i see myself having to have some sacrifice, i made a horrible mistake shipping lenor out, and trading her in for anyones worst nightmare “nothing else to be said here” except dana cleaning up blood with toilet paper off the bathroom floor from a mistake slashing her arms up and down with razor blades..

so, im lucky enough to trade back for my #1 draft pick, she even looks like me yall. were trying to finish 26 different dvds for the summer camp 2007 sleepover tour, burn actual money, and stay this good.

so, i found god by realizing that if i worship anything, ill believe in it, so worship yourself, and youll find success, stay true to the ones that love you the most, collect everything (even $800 tenis shoes that will never be worn, and have 500+ pairs…) do as much as you possibly can, and stay good and great to your own self…

anything other than self god is fraud, until i can prove otherwise…

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to betray another in my opinion is to do something to try and destroy pride and break ones character, betrayal is a weakness within, almost a tradition. a true lack of self respect and loyalty.

whenever i have been betrayed in my life i have tried to understand why. what did i ever do to deserve that betrayal? im no angel, but i honestly feel in many of the times of deciept and betrayal throughout my life are not directly of my doing in every single instance. if you can betray someone beloved or sacred numerous times while the person being betrayed is being worshiped, you are a truly weak soul with no self respect, genuine confidence, and a huge lack of character, maybe even a lifetime chip on the shoulder or the worlds against me complex, who knows what each soul indivually feels or thinks when they do such acts. those acts can scar a man to the point of insanity or just stripping a man of his individual pride. sometimes these actions may be life long events that never heal, or a question unanswered, but the point here truly is, that loyalty is religion. loyalty is my genuine religion, and i will die with that as my word, when it comes down to it, we only have our word. love is debatable, but our own individual genuine truth is bulletproof. ive given as much as ive taken, maybe not, karma is as hard to understand as life is to me, thats why i think our lives are “karma”. we all get what we give, admitted or not, i just hate having a word to relate it to. language is so destructive to me, thats why i stand by my word, for it is the most leathal weapon and shield we all each have to defend ourselves.


wow. what a fucking day, being sober is just another dimension, one of clarity that i have missed for so long, its almost as if i intended to destroy my own clarity, looking back on the past 13 months, id say im exactlly correct. i really did dilute my soul with toxic thoughts and a chaotic lifestyle, time to reaccess myself and see what besides clarity i am missing. help me out if you can, my head is so full of questions, not one single answer. i just want to be true to everyone, even demons that may sleep amoungst my nest, do as they say, not as they do i guess. those who have caused me turmoil already have it upon them, thats why its amplified towards me. i can recognize that from my own shallow way of thinking, but when youre the one who has been betrayed, there are no worries, just find an answer in whatever event or events that caused that betrayal, and know some form of divine justice will come back at some point to that certain individual. maybe thats the masochist in all of us were scared to face or admit.

here –

masochist

1. The deriving of sexual gratification, or the tendency to derive sexual gratification, from being physically or emotionally abused.

2. The deriving of pleasure, or the tendency to derive pleasure, from being humiliated or mistreated, either by another or by oneself.

3. A willingness or tendency to subject oneself to unpleasant or trying experiences

if you ever hurt me or anyone, its coming for your ass. i am no different, but as of now, i have zero appology.




to all of those who love me, thank you so much.

to all those who dont, thank you so little.

sleepy. ah, finally.

-christ.

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